A Love Letter...

My world gets stormy, lonely, confusing...I get emotional, bitchy, crazy...but you, you weather the storm, you overextend your companionship, & you help me to understand...even when I don't want to. Our relationship has been an intense rollercoaster ride thus far & sometimes I question if I'm really equipped to handle the ride.  But during the intermissions, when the ride is calm & the breeze is softly blowing, I fall in love with the idea of you...of us. Are the rough times a prelude to what we would potentially look forward to? Or is it God's way of helping us get the kinks out now so that the rest of the ride is smooth sailing? All I know for sure is that the love i feel is pure & true. I can say this with the utmost certainty because I have, for the first time in my life, put all selfish wants aside with the hopes that you will see & experience everything you want to in this life...even if it doesn't include me. Although it hurts to do so at times, I'm content because it signifies a type of love I'm experiencing for the first time in all of my years....imagine the possibilities. I say all of this to convey a message to you...at times I may seem distant, upset, or uncaring but it's nothing more than a twisted manifest of what I may be feeling at the time. At the core of it all is a raw, pure, untainted love that doesn't flicker or fade. It's strong & resilient. So please, never forget I love you.